its like a nightmare to me~

yes, i admit i'm demanding.
yes i admit i'm stubborn.
yes, i admit i will not trust u again.
yes, i admit i throw temper.
yes, i admit i'm ridiculous.


but pls do not say i show no respect to ur mum.
& pls dont say i bear grudges (JI CHOU).


other couple having problems its either each party has flaws in the girl or the boy.
but between us, its an invisible mirror which is separating both of us.
wat can i do?
wat will the future to be like?
sigh~


i'm hearing other ppl telling me how gd their bf's mother can b..
i'm hearing other ppl telling me how they going each other hse to bai nian..
dont u think i want?


i know u r tired handling all these sandwhich which stands in between.
initially thai tell me: when u r at the lowest point,
i should go thru thick and thin wif u and overcome ur family problems.
who dont have family problems?
i also do hav family problems..
and of coz being a gf, i really think that i'm the world's best understanding gf alr..
i did all i can..
swollow all my sadness..
swollow all my (wei qu)..
swollow my pride to even be wif u although those hurtful words which someone said to me.
i believe not all girls will do it.


well, i did all that and be wif u until all ur family problems had solved.
now u r turning back to tell me i show no respect to ur mum,
when thing goes better between u n her.
btw, i did not even bother to quarrel wif her anymore.
if i bear grudges, i would hav flare up on all those words she said to me.


haiz.. this is wat i get back for all the things i can done as a gf..
y cant u show more understanding to me?
y cant u put urself into my shoes?
y cant u jus placed me into a more important role in ur life?
y cant u jus be honest wif me for everything u have done wrong?
y mus u wait till some things which i've found out the truth then u admit?


its becoz i really love u and spend my rest of my life wif u,
to have goals in our future,
and to work towards it.


i really love the times when u woo me..
the period of time is so sweet and memorable.


ok, u need to take a rest, i respect ur decision.
i said b4, i will do all means to salvage the relationship.
but, a broken vase will not mend if there is a crack there.


i realise something and tell myself something
"a relationship doesnt matter with the quantity but the quality"
no matter how long the relationship is,
but it is being ruined by other external factors,
the quality is zero.