Thursday, February 26, 2009
无言以对 如果会后悔
就该学会 在爱的时候
用智慧 盖一座堡垒
收藏你的美
一进一退 流过的眼泪
不算白费 谎言和是非
有点累 心痛只在回味
月光下我们走过的那条街
当时的手还牵得那么直接
是你不再留恋 还是美好终究 善变
月光下回忆在我身边穿越
你会不会残留着那感觉
熟悉的体温 留下的指纹
别过问
那天凝视你的双眼 不说一句的吻你的脸
喔~
谁的出现 打断了永远。。
; i need a hug,
love,care & concern.
insecured. sigh.
very broke.
i need money! =(
; i need a hug,
love,care & concern.
Monday, February 23, 2009
v long didnt update blog..
well, im here to blog again.
busy with final presentation lately,
had my final presentation on 18th feb,
& now officially graduated from NP!
hahahaha!!
ok i think i will miss poly life.
coz its the start of working life le.
& till now i still cant get a job.
well but i'm working IT show on mar.
have lotte acc me for the job.
it gonna be fun.
heex..
movies & dota with my poly mates aft presentation.
caught bride wars and pink panter 2 last week.
i still hav one more movie coupon discount.
mus faster faster use finish.
& of coz dota-ing sessions wif BF and wen jie.
they will always play wif AI whenever im in e game.
hahaha coz im a noob.
lunch-ed at sembawang aston.
daiso, giant and home.
tml's another day, gym in sch.
well, i was looking in my wardrobe.
& i saw something which determine me to lose weight.
becoz of this, i WAN to JIAN FEI!
hahahaha
jog jog jog, pls burn away my fats and calories!
i'm so determined, to slim down!all the best for ur RTT.LOVES^!
; i need a hug,
love,care & concern.
Saturday, February 14, 2009
HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY!=))
yesterday went out wif poly peeps..
went rounding and eye opening..
to geylang and mustafa to look see..
hahahaha..
had aston at JE for dinner and
nice ice cream at old gan eng sng sec sch..
great world city, pasir ris E hub and pasir ris park.
supper and home.
i gtg alr..
dating.. ahaha..
=) *i love surprises*
but no flowers pls.. lols
; i need a hug,
love,care & concern.
Friday, February 13, 2009
tml going out wif lotte, glenn and jk..
dunno where they going to head to.
but i noe i have to get prepare b4 2.30pm,
then fetch jk
& evening will b meeting lotte.
valentine's day on coming saturday.
i'm so looking forward each yr,
but tis yr kinda not looking forward to.
too many things happen le..
haix..
i really dun understand..
having a me, he does not satisfy.
my good i treat him, he does not appreciate.
last yr attachment,
i was telling my supervisor that,
he is going to sail to thailand on Jan 09'
she loves to teach me things in life,
finding a bf,
the criteria and
marriage..
she told me this: "he going thailand, u mus really be careful of him, guy will usually go there and find girl, especially if the company he mix wif are those experience in it"
i was scared,
but i told myself to hav confidence in him.
sigh~
in the end this is wat i get.
i jus cant stop staring at the bloody hell photo.
it really makes me mad.
it jus spoil all my mood.
sorry for grumbling here,
coz this is the only place which i can pour all out.
i feel sad when after i read Frankie's blog,
and yah,
U started off my yr 2009 wif an unpleasant one,
a bad chinese new yr u given to me,
i used to be very happy,
coz he sail so many countries,
he can get lots of things for me in different countries,
but i really dont expect he brought this another girl back to spore.
ARGH!
I NEED HONESTY!
I NEED THE TRUTH!
I HATE IT!
I HATE IT!
I HATE IT!
I HATE IT!
I HATE IT!
I HATE IT!
I HATE IT!
I HATE IT!
I HATE IT!
I HATE IT!
I HATE IT!
I HATE IT!
I HATE IT!
LISTEN UP: "I REALLY DO HATE THIS!"
bad things do really happen.
pls do not trust ur guy too easily.
pls head my advice.
*i really do need my slp
*when will the nightmare disappear?
*when will the sight of the photo can fcuk off in my brain
*when will i forgive u?
*when will i ever hav the trust in u back
*i need to stop all my endless nights
*how can our relationship be last?
='( hais..
Can somebody hug me and tell me everything's gonna be fine?
; i need a hug,
love,care & concern.
Wednesday, February 11, 2009
u said sorry.
u said i'm naggy.
u said u're telling me lies jus to shut me up.
u said u promise u wont lie to me le.
u said u r not gd enuff for me.
u said u doesnt deserve to hav me.
u said jus believe u.
u said dun ask anymore.
u said u create a bad image to my mindset le.
so y do u want to hurt me in the first place?
so y do u start all these nonsense in e first place?
so y do u take away ur gd image in e 1st place?
one thing for sure which u had done well tis time,
which is u rejected ALL her means of communication.
but still i hate u..
yet loving u still..
sigh~
TO YOU BITCH: PLS STEP BACK!
; i need a hug,
love,care & concern.
Monday, February 09, 2009
Hav he really found back what is lacking between us?
so wat exactly is the problem between us?
feelings is gone, but within a day can get back ma?
i choose to believe him,
but do he gurantee in the future,
things lik tis wont happen again?
does he ba ga wif jie on how to answer me
when i call and ask?
did he plan beforehand ma?
yah, thai seng is right..
we cant hang there in the air..
there need to be a solution,
a decision,
and an answer..
someone is reading my blog,
but did not even leave any comment huh..
used to leave comment one,
but now also never le lor..
times changed..
you should know who i am refering to..
hahaha..
*searching for answer which i know i could never get*
; i need a hug,
love,care & concern.
Saturday, February 07, 2009
tears, teared..
can anyone tell me how to forget someone?
i have another new friend..
he told me not to place so much hope on him.
shuwen, now i know y u said that le.
not to place so much hope on him le.
i dunno if he will be back.
but i noe i will wait.
wait till he found it back.
i felt so much relieved after this heart to heart talking,
although it is a hurtful reality.
thanks all my beloved friends who stay by me,
ever since it happened.
all the Mahjong session, poker session,
rounding to let me peace down,
go changi V and changi airport.
those who keep me companion and listen to my crys,
listen to all my sorrows,
all who advice me and console me,
all who cheer me up (although deep down i still cant recover)
thanks alot..
i hope qin ling will recover fast,
after her words,
it really make me wake up.
i'll be strong.
and ling, u will too.
*hugs*
; i need a hug,
love,care & concern.
Monday, February 02, 2009
what can i say, when words cant make it better?
what do i do,
when i cant forgive myself for what ive done?
where can i go when memories are tearin' me apart
how can sorry ever mend a broken heart?
how can i hope, when everything is hopeless?
why do i try, when nothing i can do will bring you back
why do i dry, my crying eyes when i know the tears will start?
how can sorry ever mend a broken heart?you only ever treated me so kind
must of been stupid outta my mind
to believe ur words one to many times
where can i go when memories are tearin me apart
how can sorry ever mend a broken heart?
how can i have messed it up so bad?
thrown away everything we had
looked in the mirror dont know who i am
what can i say when words cant make it better
what do i do when i cant forgive myself for what ive done?
where can i go when memories are tearin' me apart
how can sorry ever mend a broken heart?
why do i dry, my crying eyes when i know the tears will start?
how can sorry ever mend a broken heart?
this song really explains it alli really dunno wat to say,
but read the lyrics and understand my feelings.
maybe it doesnt matter to u anymore,
but im sure believe time will heal myself.
i will change my blog when i really can put u down.
dun worry, i wont ever nag at u le.
how can all our ups and downs had jus gone down to waste.
3yrs jus flew away..
its not short u noe..
all the happy moments, sad moments,
*from cycling to singapore flyers to esplanade,
to swimming times to our food hunting session,
to sentosa to queueing of donuts,
*eat market food when we r poor, eat good food when we get our salary.
*i tried all means to learn the recipe of baking cakes,
i put all my effort to bake a cake during our one yr anniversary,
save and shrimp to get u a watch during our 2 yr anniversary.
*how many anniversary, christmas, birthdays which we had celebrated tgt?
*how u wipe my tears for me
*how u hug me when im down
*how u be wif me when i feel sad
*how u go beach wif me when i feel like going
*how u protect me when other ppl bully me in gpp
*how u piggyback me
*how this blog filled with so much of our happenings
sigh..
U tell me b4, navy...
if ur gf can stick to you till u ord,
u all can get marry..
ur future is there..
and can be stable..
im really naive.
when its actually u who had given up on me.
instead of cherish me.
ur msges, ur words are all lies.
i hate my handphone,
why dont u jus help me to delete all the msges in my k750i when u r using it?!
maybe u jus delete it and i wont be so upset now,
to read ur promises u given me from the start,
and our future down the road,
you said u will be wif me,
although u go sailing, we r apart, but our hearts is not apart.
yet u can lie to me one after another.
behind my back to be so close wif this thai girl when u noe her thru sailing.
how can u actually take photo wif her?!
and not only that, thru the photo, it can tells it all,
how close u two can be..
if normal stranger and friend, photo taken is not so close tgt.
im really shocked and dunno what to do when i saw that.
i teared and almost went crazy.
OUR HEARTS ARE NOT APART?!
ITS ALL RUBBISH!
can u imagine how heartless u are?!
i as a gf patiently awaiting u to come back each time u went sailing,
go thru everything myself.
i didnt even flirt other guys or strangers.
u treated me so unfair.
u didnt even think of my feelings b4 u act.
u didnt understand me.
u didnt even put myself into ur shoes.
i really do cherish our relationship and love u alot.
many ppl say ns will change a guy,
in terms of character and maturity,
but in my eyes, u changed really alot,
u used to treat me real nice and sweet.
how come things will happen till tis way?
u also tell me b4 when u went in ns,
if one day in the future,
u had changed, pls tell u about it and what changes had u made.
even i tell u in time, you had already scolded me.
so how do u giv me an opportunity
to tell u and explain to u even simple things?
='(
how come wen jie they all so faithful to gf?
how come u cant?
how come u need to make friends with other strangers?
how come u jus thought of me?
how come u have me already still not enough?
i really chim xin already.
u broke my trust for u once and again.
u make me even fear more.
i really thought u r a nice guy.
but u prove me wrong.
cajevol-evryday.blogspot.com,
i will remove away one day down the road,
when i've forgotten about u..
its useless to even leave this blog name here.
this blog name which u had asked me to set up,
love.jac-evryday
i wont be so foolish le..
nothing ever worth for me to remember when u r wang en fu yi
thanks for teaching me so much things
keep reminding me not to get bully,
but ended up its u who bully me wif tears flow.
; i need a hug,
love,care & concern.
Sunday, February 01, 2009
Photos -cny 09' and ytd his ship DND-
the theme for ytd is:
Masqueradewhere all of us need to choose ur own masks and wear
i jus find its so hard to wear the mask and smile. LOL..
it was a fun night at M hotel.
Initially, i was nervous to meet so many of his ship ppl.
But he break the ice and intro me to everyone.
The videos they displayed on the RIMPAC
somehow let me realised 4 months had come thus far..
an important understanding from families, and gfs..
Eating of banana with wasabi game which he was sabo to play..
its like a nightmare to me~
yes, i admit i'm demanding.
yes i admit i'm stubborn.
yes, i admit i will not trust u again.
yes, i admit i throw temper.
yes, i admit i'm ridiculous.
but pls do not say i show no respect to ur mum.
& pls dont say i bear grudges (JI CHOU).
other couple having problems its either each party has flaws in the girl or the boy.
but between us, its an invisible mirror which is separating both of us.
wat can i do?
wat will the future to be like?
sigh~
i'm hearing other ppl telling me how gd their bf's mother can b..
i'm hearing other ppl telling me how they going each other hse to bai nian..
dont u think i want?
i know u r tired handling all these sandwhich which stands in between.
initially thai tell me: when u r at the lowest point,
i should go thru thick and thin wif u and overcome ur family problems.
who dont have family problems?
i also do hav family problems..
and of coz being a gf, i really think that i'm the world's best understanding gf alr..
i did all i can..
swollow all my sadness..
swollow all my (wei qu)..
swollow my pride to even be wif u although those hurtful words which someone said to me.
i believe not all girls will do it.
well, i did all that and be wif u until all ur family problems had solved.
now u r turning back to tell me i show no respect to ur mum,
when thing goes better between u n her.
btw, i did not even bother to quarrel wif her anymore.
if i bear grudges, i would hav flare up on all those words she said to me.
haiz.. this is wat i get back for all the things i can done as a gf..
y cant u show more understanding to me?
y cant u put urself into my shoes?
y cant u jus placed me into a more important role in ur life?
y cant u jus be honest wif me for everything u have done wrong?
y mus u wait till some things which i've found out the truth then u admit?
its becoz i really love u and spend my rest of my life wif u,
to have goals in our future,
and to work towards it.
i really love the times when u woo me..
the period of time is so sweet and memorable.
ok, u need to take a rest, i respect ur decision.
i said b4, i will do all means to salvage the relationship.
but, a broken vase will not mend if there is a crack there.
i realise something and tell myself something
"a relationship doesnt matter with the quantity but the quality"
no matter how long the relationship is,
but it is being ruined by other external factors,
the quality is zero.
; i need a hug,
love,care & concern.
