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Friday, August 01, 2008

=( =( =( ='(

coming to nearer 100 days after my uncle's death.. i really feeling very sad.. there are many things i haven said to him.. i was in sch the day which after i went to visit him at hospital in the early morning.. went back sch but cant helped it crying into shufen's arms.. i knew and sense something bad had happened.. i wished i could be strong.. how could i be when its after 100 days my aunt-in-law passed away and then my closest uncle left me and my family.. i hate friday.. every friday i would recall it.. hospital, in cab driving very fast to make it to hospital but still couldnt, the tears i dropped really hurts.. the very same day at mandai ceramentation, i see him and send to the fire.. i really cryed out loud to call his name.. i really scared to stay at hme every afternoon becoz i would think of him.. coz my dearest uncle without failed come to my house every afternoon after buying newspaper and read wif me while i do my things.. i passed my tp and get car license, i could do it coz i told myself i wanna drive him ard to eat all kinds of his favourite food.. laksa, coke, all kinds of hot chilli stuffs.. thinking back now i really couldnt helped but dropped tears.. i haven drive him ard then he left!!!! i couldnt accept the fact.. the times i made him angry when he's alive, becoz i couldnt stand ppl nagging at me.. but he never ever bear grudges, the next day like nothing happen will morning call me to go sch, bring lunch for me and accompany me at hme till my mum come hme from work.. i regretted it, for the chinese new yr eve i shouted at him, i really hated myself.. he haven tell me more abt world war 2, haven tell me the history... i haven drive him ard to pray my grandmother for the shao mu month.. ='( driving a car ard is really useless for me now.. i missed him especially today is friday and im at hme.. sigh..

by mariah carey, this song the lyrics is so true and meaningful..
as a child there were them times
i didn't get it but you kept me in line i didn't know whyyou didn't show up
sometimes on sunday mornings
and i missed you
but i'm glad we talked through all
them grown folk things separation
brings you never let me know it
you never let it show because you loved me
and obviously there's so much more left to say
if you were with me today face to face
i never knew i could hurt like this
and everyday life goes on
i wish i could talk to you for a while
miss you but i try not to cry as time goes by
and it's true thatyou've reached a better place
still i'd give the world to see your face
and be right here next to you
but it's like you're gone too soon
now the hardest thing to do is say to say bye..

you never got a chance to see how good i've done
and you never got to see me back at number one

i thought you were so strong you'd make it through whatever
it's so hard to accept the fact you're gone forever . ='(

treasure everyone ard u especically ur most loved ones.. dun be like me, living in full of regrets..

; i need a hug,
love,care & concern.